For those that shared Lindy’s funeral with us, they’ll understand when I say that it a beautiful experience. Her funeral was the most moving, spiritual experience I have ever had. “Spiritual” and “funeral” may not be words people would typically use in the same sentence, but I will. The service was a powerful earthly crescendo fitting for a person that forever changed anyone she touched. The following day, we laid her to rest with the morning fall sun shining bright against the green grass, flowers and fresh morning dew. She would’ve liked that.
I never quite understood the ‘Til Eternity’ inscription Lindy had engraved inside my wedding band before we were married. The ‘Til’ word threw me. I expected to see ‘For Eternity’, not ‘Til Eternity’. The day she passed away I finally got it. Our time here was cut short, but we’ll have eternity together in paradise. I read this now as a reminder that I just have to wait ‘Til Eternity’ to be with her once again. She’ll see me there.
On Friday, it will be four weeks since she passed away. In many ways it feels far longer, in other ways, I’m still waiting for her to come back through the door. Oh, what I would give for that. Most every night she appears in my dreams. I wake up happier when I get to dream of her.
Brooklyn, Max and Samantha are doing quite well considering all that’s happened. They each grieve at different times and we work through those times looking at pictures of Lindy, watching home movies or listening to her read a book (recordable books are wonderful). It’s comforting to the kids to hear their Mom’s voice. It’s comforting for me to hear her voice too. Lindy left a treasure of things for them to remember her by.
The kids will be celebrating birthdays this month. The twins will be four and Brooklyn will be nine. I’m so proud of who they are and look forward to seeing what they become. Lindy’s legacy will live on in them. This whole experience has drawn us closer; and as Brooklyn says “we’re 5 minus 1 now” – a family of 4. We miss the 1 so much. ‘Til eternity’…